.Sunday, December 17, 2006.
pain...
napaKA painfuL... meh saket na ngah... [fever]....masaket pa ang puSo...khit anonG gawen kong kabaliwan..pra sumaya lng...wala ng....uMooBra...haay buhay ngaH namn...weLL...khit gn2 na buhAy coh damenG twiSt & turnS....uPS & dowNs...i lOVE my liFe...inaasaM kong statE of weLL being...darating din un..patieNce lng ihA....padatinG na ChriStmas...ayokO malungkOt aCoh...pero...cgurO..im blUE...kase nmn...noH...saket saket ng feelinG coh...aba d ako nagsisi kala nyO lng pagn2 gn2 acoH....dRamA...dramA iyak iyaK...ginuSto ko toh ang maging gn2...im stiLL in a roCky jOurney...fuLL..of...batO hehehe...fuLL of anOh hehehe...mga karumalduMal na eventS....sa una una mukha na kong pathetiC na beggar...nsa BrinK na ng pagiginG lOsEr...hehe a diS is a battlefiEld...noH...d lng ako manaLO naLo...sa ** toOOt haha d pede sbhin....akin na lng un...hahaha...bket pag talO na...GM na..ehe gaME oVEr...duH...sa mga...sUper duPEr loOooSerS lng uN...anD d ako ksaMA...dyaN pa nmn mga heLping haND pra tuMayo aCoh sa paGkakadaPA....sa paGkatalO...i knoW dat soMEone wiLL reScue me froM diS miDst oF daRkneSS...cnO ngah ba? hehehe....pede saRili coH..pede ibanG pipOl....ahA... GOD WILL HELP ME...if...i HELP MYSELF....db =3...
lunGkot ko noH...hehehe...cge iLL juSt doinG hehe... haha....hiR..pra d haLatA...hihihi =3
mhhhmmm... "HAppY hOlidayS" ...
baka d nyO maunDerStaND..sinasabe ko sa blOG ko well ehe...bahaLA kau kunG panO pagkakaintinDi nyO hehehe...=3 ingaTS
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.Friday, December 15, 2006.
My ChriStmas coLor...
....reD, green & yeLLow.... for me thOSe are the coLors for a haPPy chriStmaS....wHat aBout...bLue & siLver..for me thoSe coLorS are for...a saD chriStmas...
hmmm...wHat'S the bEst coLor 4 me thiS cHriStmas?
.............weLL i dOn't knOW...but i havE an iDea...
...it'S juSt an ideA...oK...
SimBanG gABi...wiLL start toMorrOw...aNd i wiLL gO to chuRch for 9 dayS...untiL deC. 24 ..anD i wiLL havE my ChriStmas wiSh...oooooo...it'S a seCret...=3 hehehe
..........weLL haPPy hOlidaYs.... =3
..mAy the ChriStmas..sPirit be wiD u thiS ChriStmas...n__n
.Tuesday, December 05, 2006.
LiFe is uNfair...TOtaLLy..
YeS..i agree it is uNfair....i want to give uP sometimes..But i can't i need to be stRong...d bah...lalO na sa mga haPPen sa ken ngauN....eSpeciaLLy sa lOVE liFe...masaraP anG hiraP at sakit na nararaMdaman mO...soBraH... perO dhiL masaket pranG minsan yaw mo na maxadO nasasaktan well....d ko alAm if yaw ko tlgah eh...bsta ako iiyaK ko na lng..pag sinasaktan na ko or...nasasaktan na ko..tOO much heartaChes....ehe =3 draMA!... gnda nitOng...writing sa BiBle...takEn froM 1 Corinthians 13: 1-13 ...
1 Corinthians 13:1-13
If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol.
And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
And if I dole out all my goods, and if I deliver my body that I may boast but have not love, nothing I am profited.
Love is long suffering, love is kind, it is not jealous, love does not boast, it is not inflated.
It is not discourteous, it is not selfish, it is not irritable, it does not enumerate the evil.It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth
It covers all things, it has faith for all things, it hopes in all things, it endures in all things.
Love never falls in ruins; but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or tongues, they will cease; or knowledge, it will be superseded.
For we know in part and we prophecy in part.
But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.
When I was an infant, I spoke as an infant, I reckoned as an infant;
when I became [an adult], I abolished the things of the infant.
For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.
But now remains faith, hope, love,
these three;
but the greatest of these is love.
......... haaay loVE diS....dati d ko man to pinaPanSin pero ngaun gs2 ko syah...
=3...
hraP tlgah paG nagmamahAl ka..ng soBrah @ totOO..nasasaktan ka tlga..ok lng yan..after nmn lahat ng haRdshiPS may ginHawa....=3... bsta reMember..let'S..hOLd on...and never giVE-uP...if ever...nadadaPA ka na or...natumba ka na...taU ulet...and...coNtinue mo lnG ang jOurney... =3 cge sleePy na ko...haaay kaLungkot ko nanaman ........ >.<
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abOut my BaCkgroUnd...
'D guY..over there...weeee...he iS jaYjaY...OMG...a prO basKetbaLL playEr...of GiNEbra KinGS....a guaRd for hiS positioN... haviNg nO. 13 as hiS jerseY nO. ...he is caLLed MR. faSt becoZ of hiS great ... faSt & aGiLity....i saw his gaME...anD i love hiS passeS...anD niCe 3-Point shOts...my heart almOSt melted...juZ kiddinG....weLL my mOm loVEs teaSing me...tO jayjay heLterbranD...hahahaha...ewan ko Dun...=3... weeee...mayBE juZ maYbe...we goNNa watCh on deC. 25 sa...aRaneta cOliseUm...juZ to see hiM...my mom wantS to see him in persOnal of coRZ me tOO hahaha...=3...grabEeeeeeeeee..............=3 baKa mataMeme ako paGnkta ko Un...XD...well untiL here na lNg mga peepS...ehe =3..meh gaME syah diS coming satUrday..watCh kau hehehe suPPort "jaYjaY hElterBRanD"...!
.Sunday, November 26, 2006.
How to keeP my lOVe...
....actuAlly ..How to keeP my loVE is a koreaN moVie...it made me...cry so much...well i didn't know how d moVie stArted .... hmmm y it made me cry? there's a part there...wer the giRl's bOyfrnd met a beautifUl girL...he feLL in lovE with dat girL... and you know wat...the girLfrnd is so...si hurt...there's a scene wer she..saw that beautiful girl kissed her BF...OMG...it'S like im so so very affected im thinking if wat if im in dat shoes of that poor girL....T_T i rily cried....so so much....and...sakto na...im very sad...dat tym ..dats y i cried so so much....i miss my bf a lot eh...iniwan na lng nya ko...sa YM...naluNgkot tuloY acoh...-___- ....weLL dapat sasama ang guy dun sa beautiful girl sa hawaii perO sa end... piniLi nya ag GF nya dhil takot daw syah na mwala etoh sa knya.....in short mahal na mahal nya ang GF nya.....n_n...well naiyak pa ren ako d2 ..kakatouch eh....ohhh yeah...at d end of the movie....the main characted said [GF]....it's lyk dis...ok " pagkatapos ng paghihiraP ko...ngaun masaya na ako lalo pa ko nging strong after my recovery...i met i love i conquered" .....the bf said nmn "marami akong nakikitang magagnda...na aatract ako pero iba ang true love...ang true love ay may pagtitiwala kahit ano pang mangyari"...
.....................grabe....i like dis movie..some scenes..kase nakakarelate ako...n_n.... atilst sa eND...haPPy enDing...alam ko...sa huli happy ending...den ang aken...*crieS...
untiL hir na lanG ......
.Monday, November 20, 2006.
........my battLE..
before i forgot...this is what iam feeling right now...
..." I maY not be winning ryt now in the battle of love...yOu'll see me as a woUnded sOlider...thoUgh woUnded... i will not looSe my hoPE....i'LL be strOng...i'LL stanD uP...anD try to win this battle....i'LL suRvive...but if i failed...thiS battle...and death...comeS nearer anD neaRer...i'LL just say my last wiSh..aNd say thanK u...that i have enCountereD...thiS battle of LovE...it maDe me learneD...thinGS...to love...to care...to...understanD...to be loyAl...to truSt and to sacrificE....
............ n_n ... im not drunk...ryt?
.... ? ? ? ....
sb nya ngauN he is mine...totoo kaya? minsan na ko naiwan..minsan na ko niLoKo...masaket sobrah... khit msaket ...di ko naman magawang iwan siya.."MAHAL KO EH" ...ok etoh agen...sb nya ngaun he is mine...totoo kaya? ewan...ko bah...maya maya kase nalaman ko na lng he is missing someone..and d nmn ako BOBO...at d nmn manhid...at mas lalong di tanga para di malaman kung cno un..kala ko lasing ako...6 sHots lng nmn ng red wine...well im not..see? i can type nicely hir.... meh risOn ako ssa paginOm ko ng red wine...hindi dahil sa makalimutan ko problema ko...bsta...akin na lng yun.... yOu know what...i really wish na...maayos lahat...na isa lng ang minamahal..lam mo un...sticK to one...anG sarap ng feeLing pag ikaw lng ang mahaL ng isang tao...dati...raMdam ko un..ngaun...hinde na...wala na...meh kahati na...T____T ....sa totoo lng ayaw...tumigil ang pagiyak ko ngaun...ayaw...tlgah ...i cant breath na nga eh....hala bka malaman nyo na lng wala na ko sa mundong ibabaw dhil lng sa sobrang iyak...cguro ung iba masaya kung wala na ko....malay nyo db...cge hangang d2 na lang...may gagawin pa ko...eh...ingats na lng sa mga taong nagbabasa...iyak kau ha samahan nyo ko..........and sa mga taong nagbabasa ...gs2 ko lng malaman nyo na "MAHAL na MAHAL ko ang isang lalake ...sya lang sa buhay coh" ...i wish he knows dat..
.Wednesday, November 15, 2006.
...iM fLaPPaBle...aBout gOing in a tranSitiOn...
itS' been wEeks sinCe i openEd my blOg...aND pOSt a nEw eNtry...
sO...let me Start oK...
TraNsitioN....cOversiOn..theSe worDs...makEs me flaPPabLe. Y? i doN't know if i come up wid the right decisioN to chanGe...a conversioN of myselF... I'm trying to please...evryBoDy...but...yOu canNot plEase everyBody nO matter...how u try. That'S so true. Am i goIng to ChaNGe...sOMe of my attituDes? weLL i doNt know know wheRe to start reaLLy..toDay...i fEel like im waLking aROunD in a maZe..nowHere to gO...trying to finD the way oUt...seeKing for anSwerS. Some peOple toLD me that they don't want me to chanGe...theY liKE the anGel me. soME...loVE me for whO am i...anD there'S sOMeone...thiS perSon toLD me..that he doEsnt...like my attituDes...weLL..sOMe......it hurtS to knOW...but...alwayS thiNk that worDs can't pULL yoU doWn...the woRds he said to me...is very chaLLenGing..So if its is chaLLEnging there wOUld be a chaLLenge...i need to surviVE...i may not be victoriOus in thiS battle...but atleast im aliVE...and breathinG...ryt? ...so hmmm...i can try to change...weLL...its harD..i kNOW...but...try and try untiL u suCceeD...thiS...motto iS kinda...clIChe...but...it heLPS...I reMmeber sOmeone toLd me that my bf is...yah know...luCky to have me...hmmmm...i thiNK he is wroNg...i dOn't know my head is telling me that my bf is unLucky to have me...kiNDa oDD...weLL..thiS is for noW.............i need to sleep so i can thinK...deeP...so i can decide whether to chanGe or nOt......
.Sunday, October 29, 2006.
D paiN...im feeLinG ryt nOw...
iM saD..knOWing that...may kahati na tlgAh aCoh...aNg saket saket talagah...iM so depREss,,im crying again...feeling so so alONe...i waNna shOut Out...wat iam feelinG...but doN't knOW WhEre...& hOW...better cry...cry & cRy................T____T